I can't sit still. I hate anxiety. I'm starting to get really overwhelmed with all that I'm doing. Maybe it wasn't wise for me to take the SI job. I feel miserable right now cause I'm working two jobs and trying to stay on top of school work. If I had it my way, I wouldn't have to work...but that will never happen. With all that said, I really do enjoy being able to help the students that come to my sessions and I do enjoy the people I work with at Addam's. I guess I feel like I'm missing out on life cause I'm always working and don't have time to cut back and chill without feeling like I need to be doing school work.

A Day Off

Today has been a day off of work and school. So far, so good. I've actually got time to catch up on life happening around me and I'm getting things done that I haven't had time to get done over the past 2 weeks. Last night we had a surprise party for Laura's birthday because we love her and wanted her to know that she is loved a few days earlier than her actual birthday. I loved that we had so many people at our apartment last night and we all enjoyed ourselves. I am truly blessed with the people that are in my life even those who are really far away from me. Although I miss those who are far away, I think about them daily because knowing them have helped to make me who I am and will be in the future. Everyone who has ever given me the time of day and cared about me, have helped me know that I am an important part of this world. I can't believe that I once thought that the world would be better off without me.....such a lie from the enemy. I read something today that moved something within my heart and restored faith within my being that there are honest and true people out there and that what I was apart of this summer (and still am) is VERY important.

This week is the organization fair and I'm extra excited this year because the Shack is going to be giving out To Write Love cards and they're excited about giving them out to students.

Well that's all I've got for now. There is a lot to get done today and I'm so glad that I've got the time to get it done. OH one last thing.....my Saturn has been fixed and I am now enjoying being able to drive it once again. Clover (my car) is alive!!!!!